I write these words as tears fall from my eyes. My pain reveals how traumatized I am by the coldness and uncertainty that the world provides. My anger shifts to different faces and places — all memories of what has hurt me over the course of my life.
I then look to God and ask… “Where were you during all this pain?” and “Why didn’t you do something then?”
Sure, there is so much to be grateful for at this present moment. So many things that God has provided. He has fulfilled all his promises to me. But, the journey still hurts like hell.
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As my heart continues to burn with unresolved emotions… I turn to God in the most humble and pure way that I can at the moment. I ask my
Father, “Please help me to understand why you came in at the last minute. Tell me why you allowed the pain before the breakthrough. “
I cry. Then, I cry some more. Then, I wipe my tears and open my ears to the Father’s voice.
The response of Jesus (*paraphrased):
“Let me heal you. Let me love you. Give me time to explain and show you my ways.””I have made everything appropriate in its time…” Ecclesiastes 3:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
“I heal the brokenhearted and binds up your wounds.” Psalm 147:3 “When I heal you and close your wounds, it will be as if you never experienced that pain.”
“[I] will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.” Exodus 14:14
“I will renew your mind. I will heal you. You will be PURE, unbothered and un-offended just like a child.”
“When you are healed, I make your beauty famous. I will put you on display for the world to see. You will shine the light of God. You will bring others into the healing that you have experienced.” Paraphrased: Isaiah 62:3 & Ephesians 1:19
“You will see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And I will make you more and more like myself as you are changed into my glorious image.” 2 Corinthians 3:18
“Just be patient. My work may seem slow but I will complete the job perfectly. Until then, keep the wisdom from the Bible always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.” Joshua 1:8