Wow! I’m so sorry about this. I’m sure this is very hard. Also, check out this workshop by a Christian sexologist: https://www.arielstfleur.com/bedroom-behavior?fbclid=IwAR3nxvWXpNp1UuV7qPIXbDUx6K9sLqwh0unEmq6UG_RxhKbfNgXh5K6IwIo

Hello! I hope you’re well! The baby may signal something you’re working on, your purpose, OR a spiritual blessing from God. I would say that it is something that has been hard for you and you’re finally seeing breakthrough. And that you should be careful of who you let close to your “baby” “project” and “purpose”. Xoxo